Scoopin’ poop. I had to do some of that a couple of days ago After doing some weed-eating, I had to go around the yard and pick up the dog poop… Certainly isn’t a very glamorous job but, it’s one that has to be done. I had only recently posted a blog about conversing with the voice in my head so, I was going about this with a purpose – focusing on breathing , paying attention to different muscles as I bent over to scoop the poop up with the shovel. It was during this that it happened…
The first thing that caught my attention was the absence of flies. In past years, there would have been a lot of flies – they will lay eggs in the dogs’ feces – which then becomes food for the larvae. Secondly, I noticed that – well, my dogs have pretty healthy shit. Seriously, about 10 months ago, I started adding food grade Diatomaceous Earth to the dry dog food I feed our dogs, for internal parasite control. The result is, that all of our dogs have healthy looking shit – that barely has any odor. And the flies stay away from it… So, I’d been rockin’ along, pickin’ up dog shit, payin’ attention to breathing and muscle movements, purposely focusing on stretching specific muscles as I bent over when, out of the blue, WHAM – my mind starts up again with a conversations in my head… And, it all happens in the blink of an eye… The mind says: You should write about this. Really? Dog Shit? Sure. Where? My Blog? Yep – other people have written about shit, before… (memories as images of pictures of guys on the farm shoveling manure flash in my mind) you could write all about how you use diatomaceous earth on the dog food – stuff like that…And I said STOP. And I re-focused on breathing and brought myself back to the present moment. I realized that this happened in just over a few seconds, of ‘dropping my guard’ and that the mind is bound and determined to keep that participation in thoughts going in order to distract us from what is Here.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in distractions presented by my mind in the guise of thoughts.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing my mind as consciousness to dictate what I think, do, and say, instead of me directing myself in each moment to be/become co-creator of a world that’s best for all.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that I was in control of my thoughts instead of realizing that I had given up that control for many years as a product and puppet of the mind consciousness system.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to not realize that to become self-directive, I must discipline myself to be/become constantly aware of breath in order to be equal to and one with the mind consciousness system.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get frustrated at myself for participating in thoughts and conversing with that voice in my head.
I commit myself to continue pushing myself within this process, to remain Here, aware of breathing, instead of participating in thought distractions, and to continue to be patient with myself as I face myself in self-honesty, preparing myself to become co-creator of a world that’s best for all.
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