I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fail to see, realize, and understand that I have developed a pattern of existing within and as a character of postponement by creating distractions for myself instead of honoring my commitment to myself to write my blog.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to momentarily stare blankly at my computer screen – which happened to be displaying a blank Word document that I opened to begin writing – before allowing myself to succumb to a thought manifested as my ‘Distraction’ Postponement Character where I had a picture image flash in my mind of me checking my emails.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to then justify this thought in my mind with backchat as it being just a momentary pause, and clicked the mouse on my internet browser icon to ‘quickly’ check my emails (as if something of great importance might have been sent to me in the past few minutes).
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to, upon finding an email with a list of blogs that I need to be following, took the time to open each one to check to see if I was following it and, if I wasn’t, then clicked on the “Follow” button, knowing full well that I was continuing existing within and as this postponement character.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to go into further postponement, by taking the time to read a number of the blogs due to being unfamiliar with them.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to experience a moment of guilt/remorse due to, in my backchat, telling myself that I should have been familiar with all of these and that if I was a true Destonian I would have been keeping up with all of these blogs.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to continue participation within and as the distraction postponement character by creating another distraction for myself after closing out my email, choosing that time to call my son to see if he still needed me to help him move tomorrow – and glad to find out the a friend helped him finish that today – then went to Google Map to find his new address and wasted some time there looking at the images, further delaying starting to write.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate within and as this postponement character, instead of seeing, realizing and understanding that this participation is a reflection of my commitment to myself and this process of literally writing myself to freedom and preparing myself to become a co-creator of a world that’s best for all. And so, I commit myself to be prepared to face any thoughts/backchat that my mind throws at me in an attempt to distract me into this postponement character and to direct myself to assist myself here in the moment.
When and as I am tempted to postpone writing by a thought/backchat of participation within and as this distraction postponement character, I stop. I Breathe. I realize that I can only be a slave to my mind if I allow it and so I state – out loud – “I am writing” and just do it.
I see, realize and understand that if I am to become the change that I want to see I this world, that I must walk the walk, actually becoming the directive principal in my life, looking at each and every point as to how it fits within the equality principle as what’s best for all, and applying myself to assist and support myself so that I can be prepared to assist and support others in equality.
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