Day 23: Spring Forward, Fall Back

This ‘catchphrase’ that’s often used in the US as a reminder of which way to adjust the clock at the beginning and end of Daylight Savings Time, is rather indicative of my progress within my process.  It may very well be too generous, though, as sometimes I’ve been up and down like a yoyo or, taking one step forward and two steps back.  (There’s a multitude of clichés that I could use but, the point is made.)  And, yes, I’ve created characters that I participate within and as which result in postponing facing myself and writing but, what it comes down to is facing and exposing that fear to actually face myself – and writing about it.  Thus:

Artwork by Kelly Posey

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist in fear of facing the fear of exposing myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create characters as a means of suppressing this fear of exposing my true nature for all to see.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed my addiction to my mind’s preoccupation with itself to dissuade me from disciplining myself to direct myself out of the memories by which I have defined myself in creating the personalities within which I present myself to the world.

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that my mind is going to fight me all the way on this journey to free myself of all of the thoughts and memories that I have held onto in defining myself as to who I am and have become at this point in my life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist in the security and comfort of old characters and personalities because it’s easier than investigating the patterns I have participated within and as, whereby I have accepted and allowed abuse to exist in this world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing my mind’s excuses to not write as legitimate.

I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that somehow, I was different – that I was ‘special’ – and that I could get through this process without having to do self-forgiveness and self-corrective application for my acceptances and allowances, instead of realizing that I had put myself on a pedestal in my mind, and that only in my mind could I ever be better than any other.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see, realize and understand, that self-honest self-forgiveness along with self-corrective application is the first step in becoming a co-creator of a world that’s Best for All.

I commit myself to show that the implementation of an Equal Money System is the first step in creating a world that’s Best for All, and is the ONLY viable solution for ending all suffering and abuse in this world.

Please join us for discussions about Equality and creating a world that’s Best for All – on the Forum at Desteni.org.  Also, have a look at the Equal Money System Solution at Equalmoney.org.

Also, please read some of the Journey to Life blogs, especially:   Creation’s Journey to Life ,  Heaven’s Journey to Life & Earth’s Journey to Life, among the many blogs listed, that are written by others walking this journey.

And, check out the FREE downloads at eqafe

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