Much of my world within this three dimensional existence has to do with the spatial qualities or requirements of ‘stuff’. Yes, size matters – especially when you’re involved in warehousing. So, conceptualizing this MindRoom of mine – even though it’s in the dimension of the mind – and realizing the volumes of worthless, senseless crap that I have accumulated over all these years – is a little on the overwhelming side. I’ve always been a good ‘packer’. Whether it’s packing a car/truck/trailer for a camping trip, a rental moving truck/van, a storage unit, or warehouse space, I can get a whole lot of ‘stuff’ in a limited amount of space. So, within and as this packer character, I have had this tendency to imagine my Mind Room as if it were 3D and the past couple of days I’ve caught myself fucking with myself – as thoughts in my mind – with thoughts and ideas such as: just think how much stuff I’ve packed away in this mind room; there’s so much in this mind room and the way I pack, I’ll never get through it; and, that there’s no end to it – it’s limitless…
I’m seeing this as kinda like going to a storage unit that I’ve had for years but haven’t looked in for a long, long time, opening the garage-type door and standing there looking in wondering where to start. It’s obvious that it’s full but, I can’t really tell how big it is. I didn’t keep track of everything that I put into it. There’s a hint of familiarity – I can tell that I packed it and it’s full of boxes I recognize. But, none of the boxes are labeled and I won’t have any idea what’s in each until I open it and have a look at its contents. Some of the boxes will be repacks – where I would have consolidated some smaller boxes into larger boxes so stuff would ‘fit’ better. I’ve even considered that it might be like the never-ending file drawer I’ve seen in movies (Beeltejuice & Bruce Almight) where the drawer just keeps coming and coming and coming out of this seemingly normal file cabinet, and that the more I pull out of it and go through it there will be more to take it’s place.
However, I’ve just had to stop and look at this ‘feeling’ of being overwhelmed with a little bit of common sense about how the secret mind works. I know that my mind likes being in control and really would like for me to continue being its slave – and certainly doesn’t want me to become the directive principle in my life and clean up my Mind Room. I also know that throughout my life, there are/have been patterns in how I’ve existed and, that those patterns have repeated themselves over and over and over. So, it’s not like I have to re-live every moment to clean this stuff up. As I take a self-honest, introspective look at the different patterns within which I have existed, I won’t necessarily have to look at every single moment I’ve ever existed within a given pattern. In facing self and applying self-forgiveness for my acceptances and allowances within the patterns I have walked this life – whether they have been repeated a few times or a hundred – through self-corrective application one can face a pattern head on – and transcend it – without re-living every occurrence one existed in that pattern in one’s life… I know there will be times that I time-loop and have to face a pattern more than once but, that will be because there was something about it that I missed or didn’t face in self-honesty. But, this isn’t like opening a box and assuming that I know all of the contents by glancing at what’s on top – it will require digging down into it – that self-honest introspection – and addressing it accordingly…
This will be a journey – a Journey to Life. Indeed…
Again, I highly recommend that one read the Journey to Life blogs listed under “Blogroll” here on this page and, check out the free self-perfection merchandise on EQAFE. And, if you’re ready to start cleaning up your “Mind Room” join us at the Desteni Forum to find out how – so together we can become co-creators of a world that’s Best for All.
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On my way home from work this evening, I was listening to the “Demons in the Afterlife - Part 13” interview – which, by the way, is yet another fabulous interview series available at EQAFE – and at one part of the interview, an analogy was made looking at our “mind” as a “room”, pointing out that the difference between this room and the room /house/apartment we physically live in is that we never clean this one up. I had to chuckle a little bit because I realized how true that is. We’ll go to great lengths cleaning, arranging and organizing, and getting rid of old stuff as we replace it with new in our physical home. But, we NEVER take the time to clean up our “mind room”. And I whole heartedly agreed to the comment that the first room a child “should be taught to clean is their “Mind Room” and within that, practically physically relate it to their own physical room – cleaning the inside and the outside equal and one”.
Really, when I stopped to consider that I’m a few months past my 58th birthday and, I haven’t ever really ‘cleaned’ my “Mind Room” and oh, what a mess it has become. Imagine going that long in your house without ever cleaning up – throwing out the garbage, or washing the dishes, or washing the windows, or sweeping and mopping the floor, or just tidying up putting things away. Can you imagine that? I mean, I’ve been alive in this physical form for approximately 21,275 days. I’ve accumulated a lot of crap in that length of time. Every thought, fantasy, memory, every opinion made, heard, seen or read, every energetic experience, every physical experience , not to mention all the brainwashing… I’ve read that every time we blink our mind is taking a snapshot. Well, we blink 12-15 times a minute – at 12 times per minute, let’s say I was only awake 16 hours a day – that’s 11,520 images my mind captured every day along with any thoughts, feelings and emotions attached to each. Multiply that by 21,275 days and that’s over 245 million images that have been stored in my mind – amongst all the other clutter that has accumulated. It’s hard to even fathom just how badly my “Mind Room” needs to be cleaned. But, that’s what this process will assist and enable me to do. That’s why it’s a minimum 7 year process for those that are consistent – which is something I haven’t been and, was kind of down on myself for not being. But, the thing is, we’re all in process in this life whether we realize it or not. We each have this life to figure this out – how to become equal and one with this physical existence – through self-honesty and self-forgiveness - instead of the energetic existence we’ve existed in within our minds. So, bit by bit, I’ll go about cleaning my “Mind Room”.
For whoever reads this, if you haven’t already, I highly recommend reading the Journey to Life blogs listed – there are so many great blogs. Also, check out the self-improvement products and interview series available at EQAFE. And, if you’re ready to start cleaning up your “Mind Room” join us at Desteni to find out how – so together we can become co-creators of a world that’s Best for All.
"there is one system that decides and determines via humans everything that happens to every one in this world
from communication to food to travel to education to internet to relationships to religion
everything runs on money
yet humans belief that only things that cost no money is good and valuable as inner food
how foolish - that gives all the power to the control through money…
At work over the years, we have established time-tested ways of ‘doing things’. So, when training someone, I like to have an experienced person training that can explain the steps of whatever task it is, to the new person, so there is a complete understanding of all the steps. There’s no doubt that some repetitive tasks can be done differently but, we teach people how to do them a certain way because we’ve tried just about every possible method to do what we do and, while the newer person might have an idea to try, we probably aren’t doing it that way because it’s simply not as efficient as the way we are currently doing it, and I have to remind the less experienced that there is a reason for every step in the process – they’ve been thought out and worked through time and time again so, we need to stick to the procedures and not deviate without prior discussion. However, I also know that sometimes a new set of eyes will see things differently so, I still encourage staff to question our methods and it’s because of their input that we’ve been able to adapt to ‘do more with less’ over the years. The workload has increased year after year while the staffing levels have stayed the same so, we can’t afford to waste time or effort.
Art by Joe Kou
I have a tendency to approach repetitive tasks at home/outside of work similar to how I approach tasks at work – trying different methods until I find the process that just seems to ‘fit’ whatever it is I’m doing or have to do – until I’m comfortable that I can accomplish whatever it is I have to do with the least amount of effort in the shortest time. I also have had this tendency to believe that my way is the best way… Thus,
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that ‘my way’ of doing things is the best way and the way that everyone else should do them.
I forgive myself for having accepted and allowed myself to question how others (partner/children/siblings) would do some things – like household chores – because they might do those things different than I might do them, even though the end result was all that really mattered.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to not realize that, outside of my work responsibilities, it’s not necessary for me to put my two cents in about the way others choose to do things – unless I’m asked – because it comes across as being controlling.
I forgive myself for having accepted and allowed myself to place emphasis and value on being ‘right’ and doing things right instead of realizing that placing value on being right was simply to feed my ego.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not see, realize and understand that I have participated within and as this “being right” character for most of my life, building up my own ego and seeing myself as better than others because of this belief I had that I could see better ways to do things than others.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire to control how others would do things as a way to boost my ego by reinforcing the idea in my mind that doing things my way is/was the best way.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have a superior attitude towards others when questioning them as to why they did something the way they did it or, in asking them if they had ever considered doing it differently – such as the way I would do it.
While I have been guilty of these things countless times, there have been occasions where I questioned another about the way they did something simply out of curiosity to understand their rationale behind the process – as a learning opportunity – but, due to my proclivity for questioning from a critical viewpoint, it was still interpreted as controlling – deservedly so…
I forgive myself for having accepted and allowed myself to physically react by clenching my jaw and glaring at my children/siblings when they would deliberately not do something ‘my way’ because they knew they’d get a reaction out of me.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react to someone else’s decision on the method they chose to accomplish a task – just because it was different from how I would have done it.
When and as I see myself wanting to interject my idea as to how something should be done I stop, and I breathe, and I realize that my way of doing things isn’t the ONLY way to do things and that it isn’t necessary for me to get involved unless it directly impacts me and, that if it does, I commit myself to making myself available for input to reach an outcome that’s best for all.
I realize that within the principle of equality, that there is no need for any one person to wield control over another in any way, as each of us will dedicate ourselves to only bring to fruition those processes that are best for all.
Recommended reading: the Journey to Life blogs, especially: Creation’s Journey to Life , Heaven’s Journey to Life & Earth’s Journey to Life, among the many blogs listed, that are written by others dedicated to equality and are walking this journey.
Can money be a motivator? If one were to ask that question to millions – rather billions – around the world, there would probably be a quick follow-up question to find out “for what?”… Of course money is a motivator. It is THE motivator. (Note: the only people that would ever say that money is not a motivator already have plenty…) Money is THE motivator because it is the ONLY thing that can ensure our survival. If you’ve got it, you live. If you don’t have it, you die. And we all fit somewhere within the equation of those polar opposites within our fear for survival.
So, what about those of us that have worked most of our lives? Not at the top – but not at the bottom of that pole, we’ve been ‘out there’ – making a living – raising/supporting a family – living from paycheck to paycheck – and trying to put a little money back for a ‘nest egg’. We’ve seen pension plans disappear or be discontinued. We’ve seen the retirement age pushed back – meaning we have to work more years and retire at an older age than we ever planned on… We’ve seen people within government that are targeting programs like Social Security to be privatized so the money can disappear into the hands of the corporate banksters. And after you’ve been at it for a while, it’s easier to see how the system really works. You can see that it doesn’t matter your position, you are just like everyone else – replaceable. As much as we each want to think we’re indispensable, we know it just ain’t so… So, we keep plugging away, hoping to be able to get to retirement age and have enough in our retirement savings so we can call it quits “on our own terms” ( yeah right – that’s the free choice illusion all over again).
Some of us have been fortunate enough to have run across an organization like Desteni, who has presented the most common-sensical solution for the world’s money problems with the Equal Money System – where NO ONE will EVER have to fear for their own or anyone else’s survival. Along with that, Desteni offers the greatest self-help process to one and all – where through self-honesty, self-forgiveness, and self corrective application, we take responsibility for ourselves and our role in this physical world, and face ourselves as we lift the veil of our programming. This is not an easy process. It’s one that requires commitment and discipline. It’s one thing to “know” what needs to be done but, ‘knowing’ something and ‘doing’ it are two different things…
What I have noticed about myself, though, is that I won’t necessarily let things slide as much at work as I do at home and/or in relation to commitments I have made as far as self-support goes. Sure, in the constant juggling of priorities at work, where sometimes my priorities aren’t really MY priorities but, are things that have to be taken care of ‘out of sequence’, I may put off some things to do at a later time but, everything still has to get done by a deadline. Budgets, evaluations, reports, projects have to be completed on time. Some may get completed long before the deadline and others may be submitted literally at the last minute. But, the fact is, I get them done. So, how is it that I don’t have the same level of performance or the same consistency in relation to my own self-support within my personal process? I’ve written about procrastination, fear, blame, self-judgment and distractions – among other things – as reasons BUT, when I really look closely at the main difference between how I’m different in dealing with each, it can be brought back to MONEY. Yes, money as the motivator. Because if I don’t perform at work, and do those things I have to do – I could lose my job resulting in financial repercussions that could significantly affect the way I live. Whereas, if I don’t complete an assignment or write a blog in the time that I have committed myself to do so…well, I seem to be able to justify postponing helping myself… Thus:
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to treat my process as though it isn’t important because there’s no money tied to it.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create excuses to justify postponement of my process.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be content within realizations that exist within myself simply as knowledge and information, instead of pushing myself to live the principle of equality in self-honesty, by forgiving myself for my participation within and as acceptances and allowances I have accumulated during my lifetime that have contributed to this world of abuse.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to place more importance on the possibility of financial repercussions than on the probability of freeing myself of lifelong brainwashing and suppression that will be realized by walking this process in self-honesty, through self-forgiveness and self-corrective application.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to waver in my direction and dedication to becoming a co-creator of a world that’s best for all, by failing to be consistent in my process.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to let my secret mind continue winning the battle and – metaphorically speaking – taking the blue pill instead of the red pill, thereby choosing submission to the system instead of walking the path to wake up and free myself from the shackles of the mind consciousness system.
I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to reap the benefits of self-honest self-forgiveness by sabotaging my process with excuses/justifications/reasons for continuing to exist in old patterns of abuse.
I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see, realize and understand that every time I compromise myself by allowing myself to let the self-support goals of my personal life slide while I don’t allow myself to let professional goals slide, I further ingrain this Jekyll and Hyde pattern into my consciousness/personality by adding another layer of suppression that will have to be peeled away.
I realize that when I allow myself to make excuses or justifications for not completing assignments or writing when I had committed to doing so, that I present a false pretense to others within the group, because I participate as though I’m doing everything I need to be doing.
When and as I see myself considering making an excuse or justification in my mind to slack off within my process, I stop and I breathe – and I direct myself to forgive myself for any self-judgment or blame I have directed at myself, and I commit myself to making realistic, manageable goals and commitments within my process…
Recommended reading: the Journey to Life blogs, especially: Creation’s Journey to Life , Heaven’s Journey to Life & Earth’s Journey to Life, among the many blogs listed, that are written by others dedicated to equality and are walking this journey.
Are Religious fanaticism and political agendas compatible partners? It seems like this odd couple just keeps turning up. Of course, western media has portrayed Muslim’s association with/to jihad/terrorism and the association with Middle Eastern governments for years but, now we’re seeing the ‘God/Religion’ connection as potentially impacting the coming elections in the US. Thus, I forgive myself for having accepted and allowed myself to support and promote ideals that I had been taught as a child when I was most impressionable and didn’t consider questioning – and wouldn’t have known what to question, anyway – when I was taught that God was/is everywhere – a supreme being above all things – all powerful, merciful and all loving - that was ready, willing and able to punish his creation(s) to burn in a place called hell for eternity if they were ‘bad’ or did ‘bad’ things…
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to NOT see, realize and understand that most who have called themselves ‘Christians’ were/are in reality hypocrites, as a Christian, by definition, would be Christ-Like and, there is little or no evidence of any political or religious leaders that actually Live the words of Jesus as he did, to: Do unto others as you would have them do unto you and, to love your neighbor as yourself – which is the message of equality.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to NOT realize that if a current political party truly had ‘Christ like’ values as the foundation of their political platform, there would be no provision for Defense spending (they would not support the idea of war), poverty and starvation would be eradicated, and every citizen would have equal access to quality education and quality healthcare, as the Party’s goals would be in line with Christ’s words – resulting in creation of a world that’s best for all.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to Not see, realize and understand that politicians’ agendas are not based on the words of Jesus, as the current philosophy is to cater to the needs of the 1% – the rich corporate elite - where profit and greed are the rule of the day – and little consideration is given to the needs of the 99%, as half of the politicians in Washington D.C. are, in fact, themselves millionaires, enacting laws and supporting legislation to protect their own financial interests and that of their elite group.
I forgive myself that I have Not realized that the current money system will more than likely have to fail before the majority will admit and acknowledge that the current money system has been accepted and allowed to be and become the greatest source of inequality and abuse on the planet.
I commit and dedicate myself to supporting and sharing the message of equality and the Equal Money System, which will be/is the only viable, non-violent solution to the world’s socio-economic problems, and will prove to be the end of poverty, starvation and abuse.
I commit myself to prepare myself to become a co-creator of a world that’s Best for All.
Recommended reading: the Journey to Life blogs, especially: Creation’s Journey to Life , Heaven’s Journey to Life & Earth’s Journey to Life, among the many blogs listed, that are written by others dedicated to equality and are walking this journey.
For context see: Congress-Middle-class-shrank-2000s-worst-decade-modern-history
Last week, Pew Research Center, a non-partisan independent research group, released a report verifying what most of us already knew regarding the decade of the 2000s, summing it up with this comment: “America’s middle class has endured its worst decade in modern history”. Families are having difficulty maintaining their standard of living. Real income dropped significantly as wages haven’t kept up with inflation. Net worth plummeted as the market crash and housing crisis took their toll on middle income Americans. And, as would be expected, most of those surveyed placed blame on Congress and Wall Street.
What the survey didn’t address were the millions who have dropped below the poverty line to join the ranks of the poor. Or, the millions that are unemployed – who lost their jobs – as companies downsized and/or closed factories, shipping production overseas to third world countries or to China, where slave labor wages enabled the corporate elite to continue to make record profits. Nor did it address the fact that military spending – supposedly for Defense but, seems it would be more appropriate if we referred to it as Military Offense spending – continued to increase, stuffing the coffers of the military/industrial complex with records profits. At the same time health care spending increased while reports at the end of the decade showed that for the first time in a century, life expectancy actually regressed in the US – where a 20 year old will have less years of goodhealth ahead of him/her and a shorter life span, than a 20 year old from the prior decade.
Artwork by Ann Van Den Broeck
While this kind of information is certainly not broadcast by mainstream media, it’s all available with just a little effort doing some research. And, when sharing this kind of ‘news’ with friends or co-workers, all will agree that our standard of living is getting harder and harder to maintain. And, everyone wants to blame – somebody or some ‘thing’ – looking for a scapegoat on which to pin responsibility for their plight, with arguments/comments like: if my taxes weren’t going to support deadbeats; if those banksters hadn’t used the government bailout money for bonuses; if Bush hadn’t done this or, if Obama would do that, and on and on… And while it’s easy to see that all of these problems are due to our present profit and greed driven money system, these same people will vehemently defend the system that’s causing their problems… (Obviously, the brainwashing has been complete…)
What each of us must realize is that there is NO ONE ELSE to blame. We are ALL responsible. Each and every one of us are responsible, because we have accepted and allowed this system to exist as it does. We have accepted and allowed profit and greed to be the driving force of our existence as money has become God on this planet, determining who lives and who dies. Every decision we make is either based upon, or influenced by, MONEY.
There IS a solution, though – the Equal Money System. Within the Equal Money System, All Life will be supported equally, as the message of Jesus becomes living words: Do unto others as you would have them do unto you and, Love your neighbor as yourself. These simple guidelines are the basis for the principle of equality – the foundation for creating Heaven on Earth in a world that’s Best for All.
Information regarding the Equal Money System (EMS) is also readily available with just a little effort put into research. Have a look at the EMS and join us for discussion on the forums at the links provided for Desteni.org and, for the Equal Money System Solution at Equalmoney.org.
Also recommend that you read some of the Journey to Life blogs, especially: Creation’s Journey to Life , Heaven’s Journey to Life & Earth’s Journey to Life, among the many blogs listed, that are written by others dedicated to equality and are walking this journey.
Then check out the FREE downloads at eqafe with self perfection merchandise.
This ‘catchphrase’ that’s often used in the US as a reminder of which way to adjust the clock at the beginning and end of Daylight Savings Time, is rather indicative of my progress within my process. It may very well be too generous, though, as sometimes I’ve been up and down like a yoyo or, taking one step forward and two steps back. (There’s a multitude of clichés that I could use but, the point is made.) And, yes, I’ve created characters that I participate within and as which result in postponing facing myself and writing but, what it comes down to is facing and exposing that fear to actually face myself – and writing about it. Thus:
Artwork by Kelly Posey
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist in fear of facing the fear of exposing myself.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create characters as a means of suppressing this fear of exposing my true nature for all to see.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed my addiction to my mind’s preoccupation with itself to dissuade me from disciplining myself to direct myself out of the memories by which I have defined myself in creating the personalities within which I present myself to the world.
I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that my mind is going to fight me all the way on this journey to free myself of all of the thoughts and memories that I have held onto in defining myself as to who I am and have become at this point in my life.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist in the security and comfort of old characters and personalities because it’s easier than investigating the patterns I have participated within and as, whereby I have accepted and allowed abuse to exist in this world.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing my mind’s excuses to not write as legitimate.
I forgive myself that I accepted and allowed myself to believe that somehow, I was different – that I was ‘special’ – and that I could get through this process without having to do self-forgiveness and self-corrective application for my acceptances and allowances, instead of realizing that I had put myself on a pedestal in my mind, and that only in my mind could I ever be better than any other.
I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to see, realize and understand, that self-honest self-forgiveness along with self-corrective application is the first step in becoming a co-creator of a world that’s Best for All.
I commit myself to show that the implementation of an Equal Money System is the first step in creating a world that’s Best for All, and is the ONLY viable solution for ending all suffering and abuse in this world.
Please join us for discussions about Equality and creating a world that’s Best for All – on the Forum at Desteni.org. Also, have a look at the Equal Money System Solution at Equalmoney.org.
Also, please read some of the Journey to Life blogs, especially: Creation’s Journey to Life , Heaven’s Journey to Life & Earth’s Journey to Life, among the many blogs listed, that are written by others walking this journey.
And, check out the FREE downloads at eqafe
For perspective redefining words, see EARTH’S JOURNEY TO LIFE, Day 4 Redefining Words through Day 13 Redefining Words (Part 10)
Self-forgiveness statements:
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word ‘responsibility’ to a positive charge.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that the word ‘responsibility’ could have a positive charge instead of realizing that a word in and of itself is neither positive nor negative but can only exist as such in the mind.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word ‘responsibility’ to the memory of babysitting my younger siblings and connecting that within a definition in my mind of ‘being in charge’.
I forgive myself for having accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word ‘responsibility’ through defining responsibility as ‘being in charge’ in separation of myself.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word ‘responsibility’ to the words: freedom, authority, accountability, trustworthiness, management and working; thus separating myself from the word ‘responsibility’ by defining it in association with these terms in separation from myself.
Gathering Information stage
Self-Allocation:
When I was young, my parents were strict, and emphasized the importance of accepting responsibility for my actions. In that regard, it was about accepting/suffering the consequences for breaking a rule. But, they also gave me opportunities where I could accept additional responsibility, such as taking care of my younger siblings. It didn’t take me long to learn that there was a ‘reward’ for taking on more responsibility – and doing it well – which would be more freedom, in the way of being allowed to do more ‘stuff’, such as going over to a friend’s house to play, or being allowed to ride my bike for longer periods. I couldn’t count the number of times that I heard my dad say that freedom and responsibility went hand in hand. I wasn’t near as strict with my own children but, I did stick to that same basic philosophy, which also carried over to my working career. With over 35 years in some kind of management position, the key to my ‘success’ has been my expectation that employees accept full responsibility for the performance of not only their specific job duties but, seeing their responsibility for the overall performance of our department. So, in this sense, it has been not only holding people accountable for their actions but, expecting them to look at the ‘big picture’ in doing whatever might be necessary to meet the needs of customers.
Definition:
re·spon·si·bil·i·ty noun \ri-ˌspän(t)-sə-ˈbi-lə-tē\
Merriam-Webster
1 the quality or state of being responsible: as a : moral, legal, or mental accountability b : reliability, trustworthiness
2 something for which one is responsible : burden <has neglected his responsibilities>
Oxford Dictionary
1 the state or fact of having a duty to deal with something or of having control over someone: women bear children and take responsibility for childcare
2 the state or fact of being accountable or to blame for something: the group has claimed responsibility for a string of murders
[in singular] (responsibility to/towards) a moral obligation to behave correctly towards or in respect of: individuals have a responsibility to control their behaviour
3 the opportunity or ability to act independently and take decisions without authorization: we expect individuals to take on more responsibility
[count noun] (often responsibilities) a thing which one is required to do as part of a job, role, or legal obligation: he will take over the responsibilities of Overseas Director
Sounding of the word: (and creatively seeing/identifying words within the word)
re-spon-si-bil-i-ty
response
respond
ability
spon(ge)
sibling(s)
reason
sensibility
bil(l)s
Investigating the word
Looking at the words within the word:
Re-spon = response = something constituting a reply or, a reaction to some kind of stimulus.
Re-spon = respond = to reply or answer. Within these words, for instance, in my job, I regularly experience myself as responsible for providing answers. It seems that it’s my responsibility to provide answers to a lot of people – that is actually information they ‘should’ know but maybe weren’t trained properly or, forgot how to find the information they need or, hope there’s someone like me who can figure out what they need to know. Most of the time, I’m happy to fulfil this role and enjoy doing it, as I see it as part of my job but, there are occasions that I’ll have some backchat in the form of resentment, thus indicating that I will at times exist in a negative polarity with the word respond and a point of separation with the word responsibility.
si-bil-i-ty = ability = quality or state of being able to do ‘something’. For the most part, I’ve seen and experienced my ability/abilities as sufficient to do whatever I needed to do in the fulfilment of my responsibilities.
-spon- = sponge – In relating sponge to responsibility, I can see how I experienced myself as absorbing additional responsibility in relation to my younger siblings ( si-bil-i = sibling ). I was responsible enough to be responsible for taking care of my 6 younger siblings. I was kind of bossy as a kid and rather liked the idea of ‘being in charge’. I also enjoyed the recognition/approval I’d receive from my parents for doing it well. For example, when I babysat my younger brothers and sisters, our house was always cleaner when my parents got back than it was when they left. And, as stated earlier, I was rewarded for this. This ‘taking care of’ mentality ‘stuck’ with me over the years too, transforming into this compulsion to please everyone – make sure everyone is ‘happy’. I became an organizer and a peacemaker, getting along with everyone and making sure conflict was avoided. I never wanted my parents to get upset – which goes way back to when I was 8 or 9 years old and there were some arguments/fights involving my parents and/or my older siblings that really upset me and I would take care of and comfort the ‘little kids’.
A typographical error revealed the following two words: Reason & sensibility. What’s interesting about these, in relation to the word ‘responsibility’, is that throughout my life, in defining myself as being responsible and having a willingness to accept responsibility, I have included within that definition that I am not only reasonable ( as in my expectations of myself and others) but am also capable of ‘reasoning’ with others – to get them to go along with my idea(s). This also relates to avoiding conflict growing up – for example, I would try to ‘reason’ with my parents as to why I should be allowed to do something, such as being able to go somewhere or to extend my curfew, instead of arguing or throwing a tantrum/fit that could lead to punishment instead of a calm decision being made. Also, I have always tried to be and considered myself as sensible, using common sense in my approach/views/decisions/rationale to almost everything I do.
-bil- = bill = an amount of money required to be paid for a good or service. Sure, there are other definitions of ‘bill’ but, this is the definition that I connect to responsibility, whereas I was the primary financial provider for my family and accepted the responsibility to make enough money to ‘pay the bills’. This task is one I always found to be stressful. It didn’t matter if Ihad just gotten paid and had enough money to pay the bills, I still experienced myself as being stressed. I started working a part-time job when I was 11 years old and have worked ever since. Actually, I have always enjoyed working and, to make ends meet earning a second income, I worked a lot of weekends doing house painting for about 20 years. But, I never liked paying the bills – actually performing the task. I could and would but, I didn’t enjoy it. I’d put it off ‘til I had to do it. So, this would be the negative side of my experience with responsibility.
Self-forgiveness on word investigation:
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect my responsibility to respond or provide responses within my job duties with the words enjoy or resentment.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the words enjoy and resentment to/as positive and/or negative charges, respectively, as neither word, in and of itself can be positively or negatively charged but, can only exist as such within my own mind, in separation from myself.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word ‘respond’ as it relates to my experience with the word responsibility.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word ‘response’ as it relates to my experience with the word responsibility.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word ability, as it relates to my experience with the word responsibility, to a positive charge, as the word cannot exist as either positive or negative in and of itself but, can only exist as such within my own mind, in separation from myself.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word ‘ability’ as it relates to my experience with the word responsibility.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word ‘sponge’, as it relates to my experience with the word responsibility, to a positive or negative charge, depending on the polarity in which I was experiencing myself, as the word sponge cannot exist as either positive or negative except in my own mind, in separation from myself.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to continue to exist as though the responsibility I had for caring for my younger siblings on the occasions where I was left in charge was/is still in effect as I would make it my responsibility to please everyone and make sure everyone was happy and their needs were taken care of, at family gatherings after we all were grown and had our own families, instead of realizing that each person is responsible for who they are and what they experience and that no one can make another person ‘happy’, as each one of us is responsible for defining that for and by ourselves.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing memories of arguments/fights among/between my older siblings/parents when I was very young, to influence me to the point that, from a starting point of self-interest, I created a fear of conflict within me and, in order to avoid confrontation, I became a people pleaser and peacemaker, seeing it as my responsibility to become the person who made sure everyone was happy and everyone’s needs were being met, in separation from myself.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the words reason and sensibility, as these terms relate to my experience of responsibility, to a positive charge in my mind, in separation from myself.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create a definition of myself whereby the ability to ‘reason’ and show ‘sensibility’ within my decision making and actions, became part of my definition of myself as being responsible and accepting responsibility to the point that I placed myself on a pedestal and considered myself superior to anyone that did not exhibit these same ‘qualities’, instead of realizing that these were only my opinions of myself and, cannot and do not define me as who I am.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe or CONsider that I could be better than any other being, in separation from myself, instead of realizing that my only responsibility is to recognize the individuality and uniqueness of every being as equal and one with myself.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to assign a negative charge to the word ‘bill’ as it relates to my experience of responsibility.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from the word ‘bill’ by assigning a negative charge to it, instead of realizing that a word in and of itself cannot have a positive or negative charge as that can only exist in the mind.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to connect the word ‘bill’ to the word stress, in separation from myself.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word ‘bill’ within and as the word stress, in separation from myself, as it relates to my experience within and as responsibility.
When and as I see myself assigning a positive or negative charge to a word, in separation of myself, I stop, and I breathe, and I realize that no word or words can exist in polarity – that that can only exist within my own mind – and I remind myself that all words are equal and one as me, and that it’s my responsibility to look at each word within the principle of equality and oneness as what’s best for all.
Redefining the word, responsibility:
I see my new definition of responsibility as: using my abilities of reason and sensibility to respond to any given situation in accordance to/with what’s best for all.
Whenever I see the word responsibility, I remind myself to respond to the situation within the principle of equality in accordance to what’s best for all.
There is no polarity within this new definition and, I can stand by this definition into eternity.
In looking at the characters that I have created for/as myself over the years, the most frequent, pervasive, and continuously participated in character throughout my life – and one that I’m sure has many layers – is that of the ‘boss’. Growing up, I was a ‘responsible’ kid – which meant that I was one that could be left “in charge” to babysit my 6 younger siblings. I didn’t have a problem accepting that responsibility and rather enjoyed ’being in charge’. To me, that meant that I was the Boss until my parents – or one of my older brothers – came home, and I took that responsibility seriously. I was good at it, as it was something that my parents praised me for doing well, and I liked getting that ‘recognition’ for a job well done. My brothers and sisters teasingly told me that I got ‘brownie points’ and, they were right. I was allowed some leeway and may have had a little more freedom to do things – go out with friends and stuff – because I was ‘responsible’.
Be the Change Within You
By Joe Kou
When I got out into the real world, working hard and being willing to accept additional responsibility paid off as I got the opportunity to move into management and, have been employed in management positions for most of my working life. This character of ‘the boss’ has evolved over the years – I’m not near as big of an ass now as I was when I was younger – and it has always had a certain level of what I would call “intensity”. Dutiful to the managerial model of capitalism, I have always accepted that responsibility to ‘do more with less’, to look for ways to improve processes and, to expect more and more out of people. I make no claims to have been the consummate corporate manager but, in all but 2 out of 35+ years of management, I have shown productivity increases within my area of responsibility. I see employees as my greatest asset and, have always believed in being fair and consistent. I have transitioned from being a strict ‘by-the-book’ disciplinarian to being more understanding and compassionate toward those that report to me, while still expecting high levels of performance.
Being in management is a 24/7 job. Twenty-four hours a day, seven days a week, I am the boss and, I have been ‘on call’ for over 30 years. The only problem with that is that ‘intensity’ I mentioned earlier. There isn’t a switch I turn on when I get to work and turn off when I head home. Admittedly, for years I was almost always in the ‘boss’ mode: Do this; Do that; Do it this way; etc. But, as a husband and parent, I can’t say that it’s the best character to embody when NOT at work… My partner and our children ‘know’ this character – the guy that’s always right and always had to have the last word…
Participating within the matrix we call the corporate world still requires a certain level of intensity. But, since we moved out of the city and, now that it takes me about an hour to get home (depending on traffic and whether or not I have to make any stops), it’s rare if I’m not out of that intense work mode by the time I get home. It helps now that I understand that I cannot be present, here in this moment, if I’m staying in (the intensity of) past moments.
Coming soon: Self-forgiveness for the ‘boss’ character.
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